It is amazing how you can read a book at just the right time. When I read "Sarah: Women of Genesis" it was when I was making some decisions in my life. I have been working doing insurance stuff and I liked it fine and all, but had been struggling to know if that was what I should be doing. There were a lot of pros to staying with my job and not as many cons. But for some reason, I kept coming back to the question of whether it was right. I had been praying and doing many things to get my answer.
But I realized that the Lord had been telling me all along, I just didn't have the faith to accept the answer because I couldn't see the end...what would be the outcome. I love this part:
“Faith. She felt hypocritical, pretending to a confidence she did not feel. Of course, she could hear Abram’s voice in her head, saying that to give the appearance of confidence was an attribute of faith, for to behave as if you were certain when you had no certainty was to throw yourself into the hands of God, and encourage others to make the same leap. But if she could not be certain in the first place, it was hard to then be certain of the rightness of her pretense of certainty. It was like the way four-legged creatures moved across ragged ground. Having three legs to stand on while the fourth found a new step, their bodies remained steady and their forward found a new step, their bodies remained steady and their forward progress smooth. But Sarai was a two-legged creature, and so when she walked the same ragged ground, she lurched back and forth like a drunk, She just didn’t have as many legs to balance on, when it came to faith.”
That is what it has been for me - stopping what I began when I got home. Now I am walking with crutches, leaning on the Lord to help me to know what it is that I should do with my life (at least for the moment), that will not only bring me great joy and wonderful experiences of learning, but serve Him to the best of my ability. Faith - the answer is so easy, but never comes easily.
